Elizabeth, who was 4 going on 84, was one of the first people
I got to know at my first church. Of course, her parents were the ones who served on boards, ferried their little family back and forth to church, and were actual members, but as far as Elizabeth was concerned, this church was her church, and I was her minister. And she was right.
She was one of those children who was both an old soul and still a child; she was in no way a miniature adult, but she seemed to be wise beyond her years. I will never forget the first Lent we spent together. Our congregation had decided to culminate our observance of Lent with a prayer vigil in the days between Good Friday and Easter Sunday. People signed up for 20 minute periods on the calendar in the narthex. For that period of time, each person agreed to hold the community – and the world – in prayer as a way of preparing for the resurrection celebration. The idea was that at any point during the weekend, someone in our community would be in prayer, linking us all together with one another, with God, and with all of humanity. Amazingly enough, the calendar quickly filled up, and as I was reviewing it one day, I saw ELIZABETH carefully printed in one of the spaces. Hmmmm…, I thought. How’s this going to work?
Well, the day and time she had committed to arrived. She happened to be in the backseat of the family car, headed to Grandma’s for Easter. She was adamant that she was going to pray, however, so her mother turned to her at the appointed time and said, “Elizabeth, it’s time to pray.” “Okay,” Elizabeth replied. And in she launched.
“Dear God, thank for loving us so much that you sent us Jesus– and then killed him. Amen.”
She still had 19 minutes and 45 seconds to go, but her stunned parents decided not to push matters, and let it go.
When her mother shared this story with me later, we both realized how muddled some of our theology can seem when it is articulated so baldly. As adults, we often gloss over the concepts that seem out of touch or inconsistent, but then we forget to articulate what it is we do believe in ways that make sense.
We know that God loves us. We know that God sent us Jesus. We know that Jesus’ death and resurrection are the cornerstones of our faith. But how?
Elizabeth’s understanding of Jesus’ death (God loved us so much that somehow he had to kill Jesus) isn’t all that different from some of the pervasive theologies that float around us today. In fact, they even have names, like the doctrine of “substitutionary atonement,” which posits that God required a payment in order to forgive us for our sins. It is rooted in the belief that every person, even a newborn, is so inherently sinful that in order to brought back to God, someone must be sacrificed, a punishment must be exacted, and so Jesus paid it. It’s an old doctrine, going all the way back to the 4th century, and there are compelling elements to it. But it is not the only theology of Easter, and many Christians throughout the ages have come to a different way of understanding this Mystery.
I believe that the meaning of Jesus’ life and death says much more about God’s desire to remind us of our inherent goodness than to punish someone for our human sin. Jesus’ words continually call us to remember that God dwells in us, that we are loved and cherished, and that even though our frailties and failings cause us and the world much pain, God is always reaching out to bring us closer. Jesus isn’t the payment made to a vengeful God; he is the message from a loving God, reminding of who were created to be – and showing us, through his example, how we can live and die in ways that honor that.
“I have come that you may have life, and life abundant,” says Jesus in the Gospel of John. We do indeed make mistakes, we are, in fact, sinful – we know that. What we too often forget is the deeper truth: that when God created us all, God saw that it was good, and the light of that goodness was never extinguished. Elizabeth was right about God’s love. Let’s just make sure she and others who turn to Christianity come to see God’s love as reconciling, not punishing. That is our call this season and always.
May it be so.
Kim